You don’t see what I see & I don’t see what you see.
Even when we are looking at the exact same thing; isn’t that amazing.
You are the creator of your own peripheral, so what you see is so personal & says more about you than me.
We don’t see things as they are; we see them as we are.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder – isn’t that what they told everyone?
Because the way we see,
is without the understanding of the eye of Ra & the eye of Horus.
So when I see, I see with the masculinity & femininity that’s within me; & I’m working at embracing & balancing these.
Learning to heal and evolve, and learning to invoke and evoke.
Remembering that I am an entity & within me are both energies, & that they hold a lot of past life memories.
It’s universal laws, karmic cause.
Once a dead is done, it is done for good. You can carry out actions to have less of a burden, but the angels are assigned to keep everything on your record.
Every thought, every action & every deed – you’ll answer for everything!
Be careful when you speak, especially when it’s based on what you see & you have no understanding of yourself, let alone me.
Isn’t she entitled to live in her own way?
This light work is hard,
You have to face your true self & that includes the shadow, other realms, astral projections.
You make the unconscious conscious
& only then can you really see what you were meant to be.
There’s validity in being ‘woke’, but it’s not what you see on insta & these lot are mostly making a mockery out of everything.
To do this work; you’re left exhausted, & drained.
Your physical body can’t keep up with your spiritual body. We are more than the make-up of the flesh that we’re all lusting for & claim to ‘be in love’.
Most of us don’t understand the emotions we carry, or where they stem from.
Some people are carrying ancestral hurt & breaking down generational traumas,
healing for the elders.
Imagine feeling the pain of your maternal grandmother; what would you do?
So again, I ask, because you’re not entitled to judge me; especially when it’s based on what you see & what you heard about me.
& I mean this in the politest way;
but wtf is it to you what I do, don’t you have anything better to do?
Why do you keep asking about me but when you see me; you operate from a place of pretence?
Don’t you know that spirit communicates with me; I’m protected by God’s beams, but I can’t lie, it makes me sad & it scares me. You women scare me. I don’t even think of you – how do you have the energy to make up versions of me. That’s some type of low vibrational energy. You need love & healing.
Oh what you don’t like me? I’m not your cup of tea? That’s fine darling. but have you ever even sat & had a cuppa with me? How the f*ck can I not be your cup of tea when you don’t even know me?
You people are funny to me.
Have you seen the state of the world & that’s the role you want to play?
There’s mistreatment & sufferings all over the place. Even the earth cries tears & look around – she’s burning this shit down.
You’re here to heal, your soul is contracted to do this work & through you; your whole family will receive liberation.
Is that true? Yes. 21 generations my Guru speaks of.
Eye of Ra to the right, Eye of Horus to the left & that is the test. Maybe it’s just my test.
To balance the worlds lamps; the masculine sun & the feminine moon.
This journey is very private & so personal.
Do you really use your eye to see?
Everything worth seeing is not seen through this worldly vision we’ve been programmed and accustomed to.
The more one truly sees, least become their needs.
The less you admire and get caught up in that fire of Maya.
Eye balance with the sun & it energised that tree of life in me; helped me to get back up & for the first time I learnt to breathe.
Eye balance with the moon & its energies healed me, taught me to dig deep & deal with the emotions I’m experiencing.
Sometimes I don’t like me, & what I see.
Sometimes I hurt & I cry: I didn’t ask to experience the dark night, or did I?
Sometimes I laugh & I smile at all my memories.
I’ve lived nice, travelled the world and its been wild.
What an incredible life.
I count all my blessings, but when I count you…my baby – I count twice.
This journey is so hard & sometimes I just can’t be arsed. I don’t want to tell my stories.
But I don’t do this work just for me, I do it for my whole family tree, for the next generation of our babies.
My pineal gland opened, & I experienced heightened views, deeper emotions.
But I get caught up sometimes and what I see can take over.
I have my own battles going on.
Especially when you like the opposite sex like I do, I love the masculine;
I’m a divine feminine; I don’t hate on men (sorry I call you dog-boys)
But I’m traumatised and I can’t trust you enough to let my armour down.
I love to chill with yous, I find yous so funny & I love to get intimate and f…
okay I think that’s enough
What did you think I was going to say?
F*cking chill, I love to chill!
That’s what I was about to say and yeah, I’m pretty sure it would escalate
but do you see how quick it is to get caught up.
That’s a vice; but we claim it’s a need.
It’s that how you justify cheating?
I don’t know… but for me; I’d rather wait until it’s a pure exchange of energy, I can’t believe I’ve experienced celibacy; it’s been enlightening.
Anyway, it’s going off key.
Basically, I I plant these seeds so that fruits & roses grow in our family tree.
I do this for my whole family.
Instead of asking about me, judging me & casting your own versions of me – why don’t you sit and visit your own traumas and insecurities.
Start to heal so you can show up as a better version of you.
I hope more of you do so it gets embedded in our community & the next generation won’t grow up in a place riddled with gossip & jealousy.
October 4, 2021
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